As much as I absolutely hate the idea of constantly being challenged, I acknowledge the lack of growth without challenge. In the past, I have been known to be quite a negative thinker. My brain was full of roots, as the bottom quote may suggest. But I am slowly realizing that being positive about this whole recovery process is key. Sure, there are days I want to slam my head against the wall, find myself crying on the bathroom floor with a bottle of wine, or can't stop cleaning because my mind is racing and I need an "outlet".
But for the most part, I have been pretty level-headed since my new-and-improved positive outlook. I guess you could say that I started looking at things for what they are and not what they are. Let me explain. For example, I find it much easier to get through meals by looking at my plate as a helping of protein, heaping of calcium, pinch of iron, and yes, even a dose of carbohydrates. This, for me, is much easier to think about than overwhelming myself with the idea of a full plate of
food.
